Worring. I know I shouldn't be.

I'm really stressed out.
I'm so stressed that if I don't stop thinking about all of the things I am stressed out about, my stress will explode with anger to anyone who comes in contact with me.
So I'm going to use this handy dandy blog. :D
Well, here I am freshman year.
I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I have so many things I need to do but I just don't want to do any of them. Yeah, I'm going to procrastinate and then flip out at the last minute. Sad thing is, I know it before it happens. It's no body's fault but my own. I have absolutely no self-control.
Again, no body's fault but my own.
I have two books I need to read right now. Mrs. Wassom has assigned me to read Don Quixote. So far I have read five pages and tried to understand and taken notes on two of them. I'm fairly certain that it's about a Knight and a bunch of different stories or "tales" about him.
Which I have absolutely no interest in. I also have to do a book report on it, which I don't know the due date for because my teacher never specifies anything and I haven't been able to ask her because she's been out for the past few days.


Also, my career management class was assigned The Diary of Anne Frank Friday. I'm supposed to read the first fifteen pages of it this weekend and I haven't even opened it, which I know, again, is my fault. I noticed everyone in my class started complaining about it. I thought to myself, nobody here seems to realise what she's trying to do(she being our teacher), which was to teach us. Nobody seemed to care. Everyone took it in as a chore, not a privilege.
Nobody seems to value education anymore.
They seem to think it's a burden.
I was disgusted at how many people began to complain, and about how many people laughed at me when I was happy to hear we were going to be reading this book. These are supposed to be the "future leaders of America." Am I wrong? If not, then why don't they care?



Another thing I'm stressed about is when I think about me and compare myself to other people it seems like I am trying so hard to figure out who I'm going to be and what I'm going to do and plan for my future, but everybody else seems to have figured it out. They are all sitting back in their chairs and drinking their sodas, when I am constantly worrying "Am I good enough for this?" and "Will I enjoy doing this for the rest of my life?"
I don't know how they do it.
They all know what collage they're going to and what they're going to do, or they just don't care. I however, am clueless.
I have so many options but I look at all of them and I haven't even narrowed it down to a certain category. When people ask me what do you want to be when you grow up I normally respond with one of these three things: Teacher, Photojournalist, Writer, or Professional Photographer.
All of those are things for which I seem to "have a taste" for.

However, I also think I would enjoy being am accountant.
I'm very good at math. I'm in the Algebra 2 class in my school, which is the highest math class you can be in as a freshman. I seem to I guess "know" what to do with money. I'm good with finance and stuff. Which brings up a career as a Financial Advisor.

Another thing I love is animals. However, I cannot stand blood, shots, etc. Which eliminates the "Veterinary" choice. I would love to be a pet groomer and/or kennel caretaker.

Then there's the whole "kids" thing. I know I would love being around kids (teaching or daycare or something like that) I'm just not sure if I could handle it. I've always been the youngest and I'm normally not around any kids besides Seth, Landon, and Kenzie. I enjoy babysitting when I rarely have the opportunity, but I'm not quite sure how I would do with a group of anywhere from 17-30 of them. I'm sure my experience on Monday will help me figure that out because I'm supposed to help babysit a large group of kids.

So then there's photojournalism, which I never even thought about until Kristen brought up last sunday night. I thought wow that fits me pretty well. I love and have been told that I am good with photography. I also love and have been told that I am good with writing. So I think that would be great.

Another choice would be a writer. I write alot, wheather I'm writing poetry, stories, blogs, or just writing my feelings. I've made several of these things public and have been complimented on them. However, I don't have much confidence in what I write espically my stories, none of which I have made public or finished for that matter.

So there's my (in my opinion) very broad outlook on my career choices.
I know I'm only into my first year of high school, but I worry. I know I shouldn't only because it's kind of pointless to worry in my opinion, and it adds stress which dosen't help with my social life or anything else.
So I want to know, Is this normal? Am I missing something here?