Me being upset about some things. :\

So I hadn't talked to my dad all weekend. Which I enjoyed cause usually when we talk he makes me feel bad about one thing or another and we get into a fight, but anyways. He got mad at me cause my family wanted to have cake and ice cream on Sunday after church for my birthday. Well at first I was like sure, that would be cool, whatever. THEN I remembered I had plans and to meet with the schools for schools committee thing. So I called him back and asked if we could do it Monday or something. And my goodness. How inflexible can you be? Whatever though. I only have to take his crap for another 2 years. It's so discouraging to live with people who just have a completely different mindset than you. He gets mad cause I put church before family, but my church is my real family. They're just family cause they have to be. Or cause they think they're supposed to be.

Anyways. Here's what I really wanted to blog about.

I read about someone who was really motivated about something that had to do with saving energy. That seems like something I would have gotten so fired up about like 6 months ago. Now I think, what's the point. I mean honestly, saving energy is good, yeah. But when it comes down to it, what's the point? things are going to happen and nature will run it's course. Everything that is supposed to happen will eventually happen. So why waste all your efforts on preserving nature. I guess that sounds kind of pessimistic. And don't get me wrong, preserving nature is def. a good thing, but I guess what I'm saying is, how good of a thing is it really?

I went to the church tonight to help finish the floors. We watched the invisible children video. For the past couple of months I've been really inspired to do something about kids who have a really hard time surviving in third word countries.

And I don't know I just guess it seems so unimportant comparatively.

But I guess people have their own causes that they're passionate and I just don't understand.

So the last night in youth group I got really worked up about something that has to do with this. JP said something about how if murder is wrong then how can God order entire populations to be killed? So I was saying something about how, for example, someone like Joseph Kony would be better for the world if he was dead. And someone started saying something like so what if I wanted to kill someone in the youth group and if I would think killing them was okay. And it made me pretty mad cause I mean the man is ruining tons of lives every day. How can you even compare the two situations?! Whatever though. I realized later that that person probably didn't disagree with me too much they just wanted to argue or get attention or pretend like they were making a really good point or something.

anyways I think I get upset too much over people. Because they don't know what they're doing. I don't a lot either. But yeah. :]

So there's my blog since it's been a little while.

I hope everyone has a good week!