Chewing gum.

My dad said something tonight. It made a lot of sense but I guess it didn't really click with me until now.

It was something along the lines of "If you're smart, you'll learn from your mistakes, but if not, you'll just keep making them."

I swear I have a sixth sense for these type of things! Maybe not, and it was just horribly predictable. haha

Nevertheless, again I have a change to face. I will be stronger. I think I'm ready for a little change in my own mind right now. A little confidence change. I want some. I think I try too hard to please everyone. I need to reassure myself everyday. I'm done hating myself because other people do. God is the only person I'm ready to please.

Bones sinking like stones
All that we've fought for
All these places we've grown
All of us are done for

Coldplay- Don't Panic (I know I've quoted this before.)

I have this overwhelming feeling that God has something huge planned for me, but I never thought about if I just died. To think all that I believed in would die off with me. Or it most likely would. I want to make a positive impact in this world. I want to stand for all things good. I was thinking about dieing earlier and then I thought to myself that it was very selfish of me to think that.

So with this whole confidence change, I don't want to become big-headed. I want to be open minded and equally confident. I don't understand how that works though. :\


I want a car and a camera. I need a job :[
I hate reality.