God, put your hand in this place.

We need you.


I went to hang out with some friends tonight.
I love my friends, but I fear for them.

I feel like every day I see how much worse this world can be. I see how much more we need God's love and grace. I don't know what to do. I feel like I should be doing something I just don't know what.

I do know this though. I want to stand for only good things in my short time that I have. My heart is breaking all the time because this world isn't right. Things are just so twisted and wrong. And it's so painful to watch. SO PAINFUL to witness. I don't know though. I don't know much right now though. I've just been going off my "instincts". What I think is the Holy Spirit inside of me. I feel something inside of me beating, hurting for things like this and I think it's my heart. I guess it's just a matter of faith.

I feel what I think is my heart coming back to life.
I love it because I can feel God so much now.
I felt his presence so strongly the other night going to bed.
I was so focused and nothing in the world could stop that feeling then. All of the temptations of the world hit me and blew right past me. It was truly amazing.
My heart used to be alive. It was pretty dead for a while.
I like that my heart is awakening again, it's painful, but I wouldn't have it any other way.