I'd like to know how you're doing

I was checking my myspace today (hard to believe I know :p) and I scrolled down only to find that I had "New Messages!" and "New Comments!". This is the first time that I realized there were exclamation points placed after the notifications. I was surprised and thought to myself, "why?". haha I guess I never paid much attention to them for fear of feeling lame and realizing that a certain excitement was aroused inside of me from receiving a "New (whatever)!". As if every time I see this, I am reassured that I still belong to humanity because someone has something to say to me. I guess that makes me lame, but since when is that news. I seem to find a new way to be identified as lame each day.

Anyways this discovery seemed to link in with a lot of things I've been thinking about lately. I was reading Proverbs this afternoon. I was sitting out on my front porch cause I just got off work and was sorta cold from being wet all evening. (I love lifeguarding though)Anyway it was sort of cold inside and warmish outside so I changed into some dry clothes, made myself a nice warm bowl of Campbell's Chicken Noodle Soup, poured a glass of cold Brita filtered water, grabbed my purple blankie, and my good ole Bible, and headed out the door for a mini picnic on my porch. Matt (my sister's boyfriend and my own co-worker) pulled up to this picture of my weirdness and I was sad cause his perception of me probably was downgraded by seeing this as he asked what I was doing and commented with an "oh...interesting..." after he saw my bible and probably thought I was performing some type of spiritual ritual or something. He did interrupt my prayer of thanks for my meal though. lol

However this is all besides the point. After I ate, I opened my Bible to Proverbs and was reading about wisdom and adultery mostly. I thought it was cool how it referred to wisdom as a female person. A "she" to be exact. But it went on about how she was there with God before the creation of the world and she was the craftsman at his side when he gave the sea it's boundary. So it got me thinking about why God even made us. I know it's a question in a lot of people's minds. Some things I've been reading lately led me to a conclusion. I think God planned for us to keep him company. I think he was lonely in that dark formless abyss of nothingness that existed before Earth. But what he intended earth to be, turned out entirely different than he planned. But yeah that's my opinion that was to be formed. :D

Yay for forming opinions!
I desperately need to get to bed.
Goodnight all. :]