I guess you're right, maybe things will be okay.

I'm having a really hard time lately. I'm trying to adjust to a lot of new stuff. I guess I am just kind of stuck with some of it. Every time something bad happens, I just want to go away. I guess I'm just tired of things happening that I can't do anything about. I'm tired of having to deal with pain. Constant pain that won't go away for a long time. And I know people who need to get away more than I do. But I don't want to deal with all the stress that I'm under. I guess I just have trouble not running away from my problems. I've been told that I tend to run away from my problems. I guess I just feel like I need a fresh start for things to be right. I don't though. I just need to stop being a ninny. "Still, things could be much worse" Maybe that's a pessimistic way to look at things, but sometimes things that are broken, can't always be put back together. Some take time :\ but some can never be fixed.

But maybe I've just lost hope because of the lengthiness of things.



A friend of mine told me today that everything will be okay. I guess I was kind of cynical about the comment. It sent me on a rant in my own mind listing off everything that wasn't okay and probably won't ever get better. And I'm sure that they weren't talking about all my problems. But it gave me a little hope to know that someone still has a little hope that things will be okay. I live most everyday of my life feeling hopeless. It used to not be like that... at all. I used to be full of hope for things to come, but I don't know what happened. Maybe things have just gone bad for me more than they have good.


But I'm still here and I'm still trying. So I guess I'm still okay. And maybe everything else will be too.